I think that my focus this new year is going to be letting go. Now before you start to get any ideas, I am not planning on letting myself go. I just finished an 18 mile run. Well, I think that it was 18 miles anyway. Twice during my run I accidentally hit the emergency stop button on my treadmill which upset me because I did not know my exact mileage at the time. The second time I almost got propelled into my TV. Nothing like being thrown into a crime show. LOL
Not only do I want to start the process of letting go of my past instead of outrunning it, but I am also faced with something that I never thought would happen. I am not needed as much anymore. My kids are growing up. My oldest will be graduating from high school this year. If everything works out as she has planned, she will be leaving our house in 5 months. She will become an adult. Gulp. Yesterday my middle child drove a car for the first time. He got his temps this week. Last night my youngest child babysat so someone else could go out for New Year’s Eve. I don’t even need a babysitter anymore for my youngest child.
When this whole process started, I never pictured in my mind that someday my babies would grow up. Some days I wished for it after sleepless nights with a newborn, toddler temper tantrums, potty training, math homework, etc.. When did time change from wanting them to grow up to wanting time to stand still for a little longer? In five years, I will be done with this job. I’m doing the best that I can so I don’t look back with regret. Despite some relatively minor teenage issues in comparison, the burden of responsibility is starting to lift. I will finally have time for the first time in my life to do what I want to do.
It’s time to start letting go…
Outrunning my demons 
Yup let go off anything negative
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That is something that we should all strive for. Thanks for reading!
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amen to that
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The treadmills at my gym are those stupid limited-time situations, so every 20 minutes it automatically stops on me and clears my distance. Really frustrating during any type of long run!
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That sounds just terrible! I am glad that you are able to get long runs in despite that obstacle. Thankfully we bought a used treadmill from a friend so I don’t have to run to the gym. Treadmill running itself is dreadful, makes me feel like a hamster…lol
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I just restart the treadmill multiple times haha. I look forward to spring when the ice is gone and I can run outside! Much less hamster-esque that way 🙂
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For sure! I really miss running outdoors, even though it has only been a couple of weeks since I have had to run indoors. It has been a warm winter so far. Are you training for a long run?
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You must live somewhere relatively mild! I’m currently breaking my running goals into chunks; my first chunk will be a 10k race in a few weeks, but my ultimate goal for the year is to run the whole Portland Marathon in October.
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I live in WI, so it is not usually mild. Best wishes on your races. I’m sure you will find it to be a rewarding experience.
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I live in OR, which is having an uncharacteristically icy winter 🙂 Thank you and best wishes to you as well!
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