How is June almost over already???

I’m just trying to keep my head above water. It’s a big adjustment going back to work full-time. My days off tend to be filled with running errands, cleaning, and checking in/doctor appointments. I am thinking my mom will be ruled incompetent soon. My dad is listed as POA and I am secondary. Either my dad will take on being POA so he can force us to let them stay at home or he will resign and it will be on me. Neither are good options.

Meanwhile, I am changing things up with my brother Matt who I am now guardian of. I switched his account over to a professional payee which will be easier in the long run but is an adjustment right now. Things are getting really messed up because my mom is still getting some of the notifications about bills and doctor appointments. Then she is making arrangements for him incorrectly that I know nothing about. It has lead to a lot of confusion all around to the point where the group home thought he was missing a couple times my mom cancelled his transportation.

At times my mom still wants and thinks she has full control over Matt. She has been very unreasonable with his care and I am going to change that. This has lead to stress on my part. I had a nightmare that because of the changes I made that he became violent again. There is a sliver of doubt in my mind. What if my mom was right? What if I do the wrong things for the right reason? It’s a lot of responsibility.

Arabella had her doctor appointment in there as well. The doctor is decreasing her dose of her anti-psychotic medication due to weight gain that didn’t get better on weight loss meds. We’ll see what happens with that.

Alex’s car broke down, so I have been giving him some rides to work when I can. He moved back into the house which I have mixed feelings about. He is incredibly moody and can be hard to live with but I love him anyway. He is more of a responsibility than help most of the time.

Angel is still in the area. Thankfully since confronting her stalker neighbor, things have gotten a lot better. There haven’t been any issues. Dan has been on the road all month and will be coming home soon. But after that, they have no idea what they will be doing which has been stressful for them.

Paul has been working a lot too. I am thankful for him. He offered to take Matt to his doctor appointment for me when I was scheduled to work. However, the doctor’s office ended up rescheduling Matt’s appointment and I picked a time when I can take him.

I think I’m going to call this the summer of responsibility. I try to catch little breaks when I can. Yesterday I had the day off and went to lunch with my friend Jen. It’s the little things that keep me going right now.