Last night I watched Paul perform as the lead at the local community theater. He did an awesome job. I have heard people say that he missed his calling. But is it ever too late to go after your dreams?
I have been thinking about that a lot this week.
When I met Paul, he started out with nothing. He was in his late 20’s living with a roommate in the bad part of town. He spent most of his childhood in the inner city of Chicago born to a single teen mom. He didn’t have a dad. His mom dropped out of high school. She tried to get her GED, but just wasn’t smart enough. You wouldn’t expect a man from such humble upbringings to start a successful business from nothing. But that is what he did.
If he can do that, why can’t he do so much more??
Paul asked me this week if I was happy living in his shadow. What if after working together for ten years we decided to part ways? What would I do? Maybe I would go back to school to learn how to be a better writer? Or take singing lessons? Or push my fitness goals to a whole new level? Try a new career?
I never once embraced the idea of change. But what if?? What if we moved away from this town? Or out of the state? I never lived over 40 minutes from my parents house.
I have started to grow restless with my old friends. I thought that they all changed. But maybe it wasn’t them that changed, maybe it was me.
Everything is changing all around me. People are coming and going from my life at record speeds.
In less than a week, my daughter will be leaving home for the first time. Change!
My MIL only has a few months left to live. Weeks? Days?? Change!
None of it is of my choosing or within my control.
I never really liked or wanted things to change, even when it is for the better. Now I seem to long for it. I can’t even explain it.
Sometimes I have to wonder…..what if??