When I was 34, I played the part of Glinda. I was given someone’s old ill fitting wedding dress to wear. I didn’t like it. So I dug out my wedding dress from the back closet and broke the vacuum pack seal that would forever preserve it. It still fit.
I was given a large magic wand, but the director did not like it although I did. The large wand was replaced with a smaller one and was held by some of the younger cast members.
One morning I awoke to find my first magic wand in the front yard with a note attached. I felt young to be the receiver of pranks from a youthful crowd.
Recently, I tried out for the part of a floozy at the local community theater. I didn’t get the part. The actor that was perfect to play the part of the floozy’s boyfriend is 18 years old, the same age as my daughter. Instead a young high school girl who never had a boyfriend was chosen to be the floozy.
What does she have that I don’t? Besides being 25 years younger?? Ha ha, oh well…hmm..
I was given the part of a homeless old bitchy hag.
I had to take a long hard look at myself in the mirror. I am not young anymore. I once was a beautiful flower, but now I’m at the end of my bloom. My petals are starting to droop…wrinkles…lines. My color is starting to fade…My hair a glistening gray…old hands…weird freckly dots..
I still like to think of myself as young. But I don’t glimpse much of that girl anymore in my self-reflection.
This past week I threw out my magic wand. It suddenly seemed a painful reminder of what I once was.
But if I could have my magic wand back and make one wish, it would be that I could feel young for just a little longer…
This year I will be 29 again…