Sorry to have possibly scared a few new parents yesterday with my talk about raising teenagers. I usually am more confident in my decisions. As the kids get older the decisions seem to be so much more difficult…As the old saying goes…Bigger kids, bigger problems..
How can I not be nervous? The decisions they make the next few years will be some of the biggest in their lives. They will decide who (if) to marry, if they want children, where they are going to live, their career path…pretty much everything that will effect the rest of their lives.
That is scary as a parent…letting go…letting them make their way..watching them learn lessons the hard way..
I can’t seem to relate to new parents anymore. I guess that is a clear giveaway that I am getting old..
Paul asked the other day if I missed having young children. “No” was my reply. Some of my friends are grandparents.
It has been a year full of changes so bear with me. I am entitled to go a little crazy every once in awhile.
My oldest daughter left home for college, then less than six months later Paul lost his mother. Together we lost our first parent and our oldest left.
We can see how the decisions our parents made in their young years effected the whole direction of their lives for good and for bad. Now we are seeing what path our children will take.
Within the last six months I also lost my last ‘great’ and now my parents attained the status of oldest living relatives. And I thought my parents were old when I was a kid!
This whole midlife thing is starting to get old. The kids are starting to leave home while our parents are starting to age rapidly and die.
I want to enjoy every single moment of life that I can.
This morning I awoke to the news that the baby of my neighbor’s daughter passed away unexpectedly. Last year my neighbor lost his wife and she was only 45. It just doesn’t seem fair. I feel such sorrow for the family.
It also makes me appreciate the blessings I have. It makes me want to squeeze my kids tight. Although I am not too sure they would like that.
I am doing the best that I can. I am trying to make the best decisions that I can for my kids. That will have to be good enough.
I am trying to grasp life and enjoy what I can now because this is as young as I am ever going to be.