I think I am depressed.
One of the signs of depression is losing interest in hobbies. What if you just can’t do the things you enjoy anymore??
If I spend too much time at work, type a lot (write), shuffle cards, or work jigsaw puzzles my carpal tunnel acts up. My hands ache. I need to wear a brace. If I exercise with weights, sometimes I can’t grasp them. Several times a week my hands just let go of items and I drop them. I’ve dropped my phone several times. Lately, I’ve dropped containers of foundation or eye shadow shattering them into powder so I have to throw them out. I have problems opening lids on jars.
Sometimes my acid reflux gives me a hoarse voice and sore throat which makes it very difficult for me to sing, another hobby of mine.
I have enjoyed running and competing in races, but now my knee hurts so much that I might have to cut back or stop altogether.
It seems like everything that I really enjoy doing to deal with my stress is being taken away from me.
I feel depressed that my daughter will be graduating from high school in a few days. She is a lot like me. We have so much in common and have become close friends. Now she will be moving several hours away and starting a new life without me. I am happy for her, just sad for me.
My relationship with my other two kids sucks. My son is currently failing all of his core classes. He is angry at us or depressed when we give him consequences. The hard part is that he has a brilliant mind, but is too lazy and unorganized to put any effort into his studies. I have no control over this. My youngest daughter and I have nothing in common at all. She takes pride in annoying me and arguing with everything that I say.
Work is stressful. Running our own business, having employees, and demanding customers takes a lot of energy.
My mother-in-law has terminal lung cancer and at best has a few months to live.
I am starting to see my own parents age in new ways that worry me.
Every organization that we belong to thinks that they are the only organization that we belong to. Everybody wants our time, our money, a life blood commitment.
My husband and I have both been irritable and stressed these last couple of months. I honestly don’t know how much more of this we can take. Instead of people helping us through these difficult times, they drain us of whatever we have left.
So, yeah, I guess I am feeling a little down.