The month of April left us with the most rainfall ever recorded in our area. May is starting cool, cloudy, and blustery. A few snowflakes swirled around on the first day. I wonder what the new month will bring us.

My mom is continuing to decline. Both of my parents are slowly dying at the same time. It takes a lot out of me to visit them. I don’t enjoy our visits. I never expected my mom to hold on as long as she is. What is the purpose or meaning?

Angel just started her third trimester. It seems surreal that my daughter is having a baby. We will be having her baby shower next weekend.

Alex is gearing up for the summer season starting today with his band. His car broke down and this time I don’t think it’s going to be fixable. He really gets attached to his vehicles, almost like they are a living being.

Arabella broke up with her boyfriend. She is starting to look for bartender jobs.

Paul finished up tax season and is starting on his summer seasonal job. Thankfully he was able to help me with the financial records for my brother Matt’s annual review of guardianship. I would’ve been absolutely lost without his help as the paperwork was a mess after I took over for my mom. A week or so ago I received a report of an incident that occurred at Matt’s group home. Apparently a new caregiver (I had a weird feeling about him) was drinking on the job. The second shift employee found him passed out drunk with empty liquor bottles around him. How hard is it to find good employees?

Work has been difficult lately. Our supervisor left which is a good thing. To be fully staffed, we need 8 employees working the day shift. Two of the employees accepted open positions within the company elsewhere. My weekend partner ended up walking out last weekend, and I ended up working a 12 hour shift by myself with no breaks. We are so busy we should have at least two employees working at all times. Things are going to be really hard for the remaining 5 employees as we start summer off short staffed. So far it looks like I will be working two 12 hour shifts over the holiday weekend alone. We’ll see what happens.

Sometimes I just want to stop time for a few moments when life is at its best.